nausea...

ever since christmas eve day, i have had nausea every time i drink. so eating is out of the question! its really getting annoying! im a few days away from progressing to soft foods and i have hardly had anything to eat during the pureed faze! so im kinda worried but im gonna go ahead and see what happens!

better days...

so i am on day 2 of puree and its getting interesting. i am able to eat the foods suggested for this faze, but not very much at once. the refried beans i made today were so yummy but i can only eat 1 or 2 small bites at once. if i eat any more i feel alot of pressure in my chest and it feels like the beans are stuck and not moving down. avocados go down very well and the chicken salad i made is good and goes down fairly well. one thing that i can eat more of is sugar free pudding! i can eat a whole thing of it without problems. well, thats not entirely true... for like 10 minutes after eating it i feel light headed and super full. im going to call the nutritionist tomorrow and see if this type of thing is normal and if i can get my protein in a different way! other than these small things i feel great! its nice ot be able to taste yummy food again!

day 4...

well today is day 4 and i am feeling pretty good! just taking it easy and trying to stay warm! it is freezing outside! i got a little over-whelmed today when i couldn't clean the litter boxes and break the water up in the buckets outside for the horses. but after talking to mom she said she can help me out and not to worry! i just cant bend over yet, not enough to do what needs to be done! as far as eating is concerned, i'm not hungry at all and when i tried some jello i could barely eat a tiny bit and only a few small bites of popsicle. so for now im just staying focused on hydration! its a task in of itself, having to sip constantly because i cant take big drinks! but its getting better each day! i decided to try a little decaf coffee today and its not too bad, just doesnt help the thirst part, i really have just been thirsty so much since the surgery! hopefully that part will improve! i need to also take some measurements of my body cause i forgot about that part before. got pics, but not measurements! anywho, im off to get some water cause after that coffee im dieing!!

soooo sick!!!

so i woke up this morning and felt like i had been hit by a truck! couldnt breathe out of my nose and my head felt like it was going to explode! i immediately worried that my surgery was in jeopardy so i made some phone calls and got to the doc and got a shot and some meds! sinus infections are a common thing for me, but this close to surgery i really worried about it! so for now im just taking it easy and sleeping alot! hopefully by monday morning ill be much better and can put this behind me! i wish i could just sleep until monday morning actually, just skip the whole weekend! oh well...

weak and hungry...

today has been a loong day! i am so weak and tired... i just want to sleep! it has to be due to not eating anything of substance, but it still sucks! i just want some real food!! i am so hungry too! and on top of everything else, i think im starting my period, which i havent had in a year! perfect timing if there ever was! going to stick with the program tho, it will be worth it in the end! i keep telling myself that i will eventually be able to eat real food, just in small portions! time to make a protein shake... i dont think ill ever be able to have strawberry flavored food again in my life!

new to this...

well i have never blogged before, but i figure ill give it a shot! for those i dont see every day and those living far away i dedicate this blog to you! will try to keep everyone posted on my recovery and success on the road ahead! i know it will be hard and even harder some days, but i am ready to change my life and make things better for myself!

i am currently 9 days pre op and its getting harder to stick to the liquid diet! but im trying my best! i plan on taking some pre surgery pics in the next few days and hopefully i can keep a photo journal on my physical transformation! it is so exciting to think about! so lets take this journey together and by this time next year i will be a totally different person, on the outside at least!!